Have you ever been around someone that is so negative that you can feel it from them? That one person who you can’t really tell off for respect reasons but their negative outlook when looking at you sucks. I recently have come back around this person in my life and suddenly remember how bad it really is, I had to send this person out of my life at a couple points because of how her negativety effects me and how I move forward.
The people in a persons life are supposed to be there to support one another, give appreciation, and a helping hand when it’s needed. I do my best to be this type of person to everyone but it doesn’t go far when I am disregarded completely. It appears that nothing I do get’s any credit and it really just doesn’t seem to matter at all to her.
I have taken some big steps to be able to put myself back together which were not easy, to admit I needed help was hard but to actually sign up for medication and a therapist is another big hurdle. It’s not an easy task to say to yourself that you recognize there are new issues in your life and behavior that need to be addressed with therapy and medication and then do something about it. Not many people actually take the steps to help themselves.
I can see the way she looks at me like I’m always doing something wrong, or wondering why I am even here again. This is not the only time in my life that I remember her being this way towards me and I can see now how this has effect on me and wonder if it had the same effect in the past and I just don’t remember because of how much I used to drink. If so then that would mean this woman has been out to sabotage me from the beginning and if she cares this little now I need to be able to cut all ties with her soon.