The Burn Story and PTSD

  I recently became aware that PTSD effects more than the person who has it, the symptoms are quite explosive for the family too. I believe it is the most difficult to manage because I never know what will trigger it. 

       In December of 2020 I was taken to University Hospital by ambulance and admitted to the Burn Center Intensive Care Unit. I had just been burned by an enclosed propane fire that burned 20% of my body. Before I was able to escape the flames I remember falling to my back and I could hear my skin sizzling while I was trying to get to get out, my face was burning as I watched as the flames started to consume my hands and legs. The man I had been planning to marry was beside me when I went to sleep but where was he now? I was focused on getting out, I had finally made it to the side of the tent and ripped it open. Surprisingly I was able to stand, when I did the flames latched onto my hair and then they were gone. Just then my partner had crawled out and said he would go for help.

      I spent a month having surgery and daily wound care to repair the damage from the fire and found out that fire destroys everything down to the cellular level and stops any possibility of regeneration so when they said skin grafts were necessary for me to heal I had to do it. I had to learn how to do everything all over again, I had no use of my hands, I couldn’t walk or even to go to the bathroom on my own. I was told my partner was also admitted to the hospital but left against medical advice before they could even treat the burns he had on his arm. I was already in great physical pain but now the emotional shock of the man I was going to marry had abandoned me in this time of great need. I received no visits or phone calls from him the whole time I was recovering and started to question it.                                                                                            I pushed myself to get well but my mental and emotional health still suffered through a traumatic event but I had to find out if this was intentional or what I was hoping, an accident. The outcome was not good and I learned he was listening to me the whole time I was on fire and did nothing to help me. He still walks around on the street because no investigation was ever done.

I have PTSD from the fire and from the betrayal.

      I came to my mom’s to heal when I learned how PTSD effects the people around you when I would snap at my mom for just saying good morning sometimes. She has gone out of her way to help me heal and she hesitates now because of the fear of not knowing how I will react to things she may want to say. I isolate myself in my room most of my time now because I don’t trust being in public or around other people. I am looking into counseling to help treat the symptoms to better heal myself and my family.

Published by Ms Kiim

I have had a hard life and been through some tough experiences. I have a lot of information to share when it comes to domestic violence and abuse of every kind, the cycle of abuse is a horrible place to live and I hope to empower women so they have a chance to break free and change the quality of life for themself and the children.

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